I think I’m becoming frighteningly more aware of my potential as a human being. I tried to feign strength for denial. I tried to trade my depression with a smile. I realize, although I know it took strength to pour positivity into the world despite my circumstances, that participating in the emotions I feel (i.e. crying when sad or yelling when angry) that it is more healthy. Don’t follow the phrase “Be happy. Be healthy”. Be sad and angry and jealous as well. That’s truly being healthy. Thats what I’ve learned these past six years. I’ve matured enough to know that storms are necessary in order to achieve a harvest.

In my dreams I see what it means to live an existence foreign to me. I know not why I do, only the what. It scares me. Because I wake up and it feels the same. Neither my subconscious nor my true life are lucid. Nothing is in my control and I am drowning in a pool of overwhelming purple skies with embered stars scattered throughout. They sizzle to the touch. Maybe I wasn’t meant to burn bright. My flame of passion is a burnt out wick of a blue candle with the aroma of disappointment. It’s scent lingers in my nostrils like a gas stations fumes. But at least those fumes can ignite. So I bravely close my eyes now to rest in the restlessness of constant worry. Will I ever he good enough for him? Will he even consider me worthy? These answers I do not know and therefore I proceed to live an existence not my own. Living in anticipation of an event that may never come. Preparing for someone who could easily pass me by. My burden is to live in reaction of them because I am the black pawn on the board. You make the first move. Until theny he forecast is purple skies with embered stars.

wyattmcmanus99:

theblackparty:

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Carefully notice the lack of logical thinking here. She’s not even following the line of questioning.

When privilege is in question, no matter how ignorant or intelligent a person is, they tend to retreat to illogical arguments that are easily refuted and they kinda resemble toddlers, except I actually like toddlers and toddlers make more sense.

And honestly, many White women would not tolerate such ridiculous arguments, lack of empathy and self-centeredness ("why bring up race if it’s not a problem for you?") if the question was gender and a White man posed this foolishness to them. They wouldn’t tolerate it. They would easily expose the ignorance. But magically when privilege (in this case White privilege) is in question, all bets are off.

The last GIF explains my life in so many ways… *rolls eyes*

The weirdest thing is that though this is from a satirical show (The Daily Show) and meant to discuss racism with humor, these are the real answers that most Whites give daily, so I couldn’t really laugh this time. I just felt tired.

the perils of trying to communicate this to white people in debates. in the many debates I’ve had the chance of witnessing, race comes up about 80% of the time, when discussing this in a diverse setting. and for whites, sometimes their mindset is ‘oh, why are they pulling the race card.’ but for blacks it’s, ‘understand that purely based off of what I look like, I will experience something totally different, give me the chance to explain.’

Actually black people are the privileged ones no cause nobody wants to be charged with being racist by not giving them a job

What you are calling “black privilege” is actually referred to as affirmative action. The mere existence of affirmative action both proves and tries to combat the existence of white privilege. From a sociological standpoint the only true privilege that exists is that of the Caucasian men in the United States. All other groups, including Caucasian women, have to live with a double-consciousness. Double-consciousness was an ethnographic term coined by the first African American to graduate with a Ph.D from Harvard, W.E.B. Dubois. It encompasses the fact that all other groupings of people besides the Caucasian male have to live under two scripts of behavior. One which is the ordinary day-to-day living, and the other is the behavior shown under the judgements and influence a person perceives others to have of them.

For example: (So as to avoid the realm of race and gender I will use an anonymous teenager.)

- A teenager among one’s peers will behave in a relaxed fashion. Perhaps reckless or informal. If a parent or an adult were to enter the situation the dynamic among the teenager and his/her peers would change. The group would take the presence of the adult into consideration, thus inherently changing the behavior of the group. The adult’s presence forms a double-consciousness.

So going back to my main point, as the lady says, “Why bring [race] up if it’s not a problem for you?” exemplifies the privilege given. White people in the workforce don’t need to be conscious of a second realm because the other realm is beneficial to them inherently. In this second realm lies the privilege. The lady does not see the problem with race because she has not suffered the consequences of not being white. The genuine ignorance is also a product of white privilege. Is the lady to be blamed or hated for her ignorance? No. She is to be educated on it. So I do not mean to demean or demonize white people in order to get my point across that white privilege exists. I simply mean to provide evidence that white privilege exists inherently within the American society and that saying “Oh my God” in a frustrated manner after someone genuinely cannot relate to the issue solves nothing. The Caucasian woman and her peers need to be educated, not blamed. Their life experience was inherent and their privilege was through no fault of their own.Teach education, don’t preach with frustration.

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